However, although I had visited many monasteries and had long discussions with bishops and abbots, I did not feel ready or willing to accept such a responsibility.
Tomēr es nejutos gatavs uzņemties šādu pienākumu un man nebija arī vēlēšanās to darīt, kaut gan biju viesojies daudzos klosteros un gari diskutējis ar bīskapiem un klosteru priekšniekiem.