On the other hand, I realized that probable death, or at least spending much of my life in prison, lay ahead of me if I continued living the way I had until then.
Taču tāpat es sapratu, ka tad, ja atgriezīšos pie iepriekšējā dzīvesveida, mani, visticamāk, gaida nāve vai vismaz ilgi gadi cietumā.