This means that while we are willing to suffer ​ — and, if necessary, to die — ​ for our faith, we do not relish the thought of doing so.
Maksudnya, meskipun kita rela menderita ​ — dan, jika perlu, mati ​ — demi iman kita, penderitaan dan kematian bukanlah sesuatu yang kita dambakan.