He described his feelings this way: “My heart was soured and in my kidneys I was sharply pained. ”
وَقَدْ وَصَفَ مَشَاعِرَهُ بِٱلْكَلِمَاتِ ٱلتَّالِيَةِ :‏ « قَلْبِي بِهِ مَضَضٌ ،‏ وَفِي كُلْيَتَيَّ وَجَعٌ حَادٌّ » .‏