Rather than torment yourself, you may find comfort in the words of wise King Solomon: “The living are conscious that they will die; but as for the dead, they are conscious of nothing at all. ”
فعوض ان تعذبوا نفسكم ،‏ يمكنكم ان تجدوا العزاء في كلمات الملك الحكيم سليمان :‏ « الاحياء يعلمون انهم سيموتون .‏