Perhaps you were an elder or a ministerial servant at one time but are not presently serving in that capacity. You love Jehovah and can be sure that he still cares for you. Were you told that you need to make some adjustments?
ذَكَرَ :‏ « صَمَّمْتُ أَنْ أَسْتَمِرَّ فِي حُضُورِ ٱلِٱجْتِمَاعَاتِ ،‏ ٱلِٱنْهِمَاكِ فِي خِدْمَةِ ٱلْحَقْلِ ،‏ وَقِرَاءَةِ ٱلْكِتَابِ ٱلْمُقَدَّسِ تَمَامًا كَمَا لَوْ أَنِّي مَا زِلْتُ شَيْخًا .‏