You would not be the first to experience such. Jeremiah wrote that unfaithful Jews in his day had “a stubborn and rebellious heart. ”
(‏ ار ٧ :‏ ٢٤ ؛‏ ١١ :‏ ٨‏ )‏ فَقَدْ كَتَبَ إِرْمِيَا أَنَّ ٱلْيَهُودَ غَيْرَ ٱلْأُمَنَاءِ ٱلْمُعَاصِرِينَ لَهُ كَانَ لَدَيْهِمْ « قَلْبٌ مُعَانِدٌ وَمُتَمَرِّدٌ » .‏