I didnt do any of this to succeed, I did it because I was told to do it. 하나님은 제가 결과에 집중하는 것을 멈추고 순종에 집중해야 한다는 것을 보여주고 계십니다. It is a difficult struggle, as I love being in control, or at least, I love being under the illusion that I am in control.