Here he performed very well offensively, but he was despondent much of the time, asking himself, Why am I playing baseball? 그는 어머니를 살리는 것이 큰 동기부여가 되었다는 것을 깨닫고 감독에게 가서 팀을 그만두겠다고 말했습니다. Joe, what are you doing?