During my four years as a denier, I was wracked with selfhate and loathing, a fact that many of my critics were quick to point out. 사실 이러한 자기 증오는 대부분의 사람들에게는 명백한 것이었지만 저는 너무 눈이 멀어 그것을 보지 못했습니다. The hate I had for myself I took out on my people.